Tonight just before going to bed I decided to listen to an “I Am” meditation that someone had sent me as a gift. It was very brief, just slightly longer than three minutes. Although I was listening to it from my main iTunes library rather than my meditation playlist, I was startled when the meditation ended and the next “song” I heard wasn't another meditation but “Hold On” by Kansas. Wow!
I haven't heard the song in a very long while. At first I was confused about why it was the next song to play. It doesn't immediately follow the "I Am" meditation in the main list, and my playlists and the library is usually set to play songs in the order that they are listed. However, I noticed tonight the shuffle button was highlighted.
Since I intended to listen only to the meditation before retiring, I immediately turned off the Kansas song, but then had this sense I needed to listen to it. So, I did—
"Look in the mirror and tell me just what you see.Thanks, Universe! It was exactly the message I needed to hear tonight.
What have the years of your life taught you to be.
Innocence dyin' in so many ways.
Things that you dream of are lost, lost in the haze.
"Hold on, Baby Hold on.
'Cause it's closer than you think and you're standing on the brink.
Hold on, Baby Hold on.
'Cause there's something on the way.
Your tomorrow's not the same as today." 1
As I noted in a previous post, 2016 has at times felt a lot like the “year from hell” for me and I gather quite a few others if YouTube videos and news reports are to be trusted. I know that I am highly capable of accomplishing anything I set my mind to, but honestly this year tested my resilience and confidence in myself to the extreme limit. As the year winds down, it is challenging for me to look back over the past 12 months and not feel disappointed with myself and what I am currently experiencing in my life. It’s also challenging not to feel stuck when your mind begins to fixate on all the mistakes you’ve made, and you believe (wrongly) your future is completely screwed because of all the mistakes of your past.
As I look around me, I am certain that my current experience is not one that I intended to create for myself. I had something far grander in mind. Yet, I also know that too many times this year I allowed fear to make my decisions, short-circuiting my goals and dreams just as they were on the brink of coming into fruition. If your goal is to be successful and live a life beyond your wildest imaginations, fear-based decisions and actions will not get you there.
Anyway, I am determined to persevere in spite of, which is why I chose to listen to the “I am” meditation tonight before sleeping—to help lift my spirits, remind me of who I am, and of what I am capable. As author Wayne Dyer wrote in “Wishes Fulfilled” and stressed in many of his lectures, the last five minutes before you fall asleep are the most important minutes of your day. You can squander those five minutes before sleep reviewing all the things you didn’t like about your day, all the things that didn’t work, and all the stuff that’s going on with your life that you're unhappy about, setting yourself up for more of the same the next day. Or, you can use them to help create more of what you prefer to experience by focusing on your dreams, your goals, the people you love, and things you do enjoy about your life. I decided to go the latter route. Neither my past nor my present circumstances determine my future, unless I choose for them to.
"Outside your door he is waiting, waiting for you.
Sooner or later you know he's got to get through.
No hesitation and no holding back.
Let it all go and you'll know you're on the right track."
"Hold on, Baby Hold on.
'Cause it's closer than you think and you're standing on the brink.
Hold on, Baby Hold on.
'Cause there's something on the way.
Your tomorrow's not the same as today." 1
1 1Written by Kerry Livgren • Copyright © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
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