Embarking on a Journey to Explore My True Nature

It has been nearly three months since my dad passed away, and I really do miss him very much. Still, I cling doggedly to my faith and belief in miracles, including supernatural healing, despite what appears to have been an unanswered prayer regarding my dad’s return to health.

I continue to perfect my faith. I continue to grow, to study, and to learn. I have learned that there can be no room for doubt or unbelief when awaiting the manifestation of your desired outcomes—those things about which you have prayed. Doubt and unbelief are like weeds—they will choke the life out of the thing you are believing for before it even has a chance to bud. Remaining steadfast and unmovable, even in the face of failure, is not an option, it is a must.

And I believe the failure to be my own—not dealing with the weeds. I refuse to give myself an out and fall back on worn, faithless, so-called spiritual clichés like "God knows best." or "It was just his time." I allowed weeds to spring up and grow uncontrolled in my mind. I let my physical eyes and ears tell me what was possible, rather than relying on my spiritual eyes and ears. My faith is not yet perfected.

Perhaps, it will never be while I am in this physical body; however, I will continue expanding and continue exploring who I am and what is truly possible for me to accomplish, to have, and to experience. I am certain there is so much more that we are capable of being and experiencing than we allow ourselves because we limit our abilities to that which our physical bodies can do, or we think they can do. But we are not simply our bodies. We are the life force that animates these bodies. We are infinite beings connected to an Infinite Power that created a vast, endless universe, of which we see only a tiny fraction. As Shakespeare wrote in Hamlet: "There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, Than are dreamt of in your philosophy."

I am excited about this journey to explore the true essence/nature of me and discover what I’m really capable of creating and experiencing. I believe this is the sole purpose of life.